I am changed. Life has changed me. I am no longer the me who I used to be. Actually, it would be more accurate to say that in fact I am more of me than ever before. More whole.
I had a chat with a friend today about control. Needing to control life and the events that come our way. I hate to break it to you, but control is a complete illusion. An idea that we have manifested in order to bury our fear. Our fear of being out of control. Our fear of being afloat on a sea of chaos.
A lot of the changes that I have made in my life, both unconsciously and consciously, have been to let go of these fears. To release the illusion that I am in control. To allow it to be what it needs to be.
It is difficult to put into words how profound of an impact this process has had on my life. I have been chipping away at this fear-based belief system from which I used to see the world. Somehow, somewhere along the way, all of these small changes converged, resulting in a big change. An irreversible change. Transcendence. I am no longer the me that I used to be.
How do I know this? By being brave enough to peer into the mirrors of those around me. Everyone that you surround yourself with is a reflection of who you are. When I look around with me honestly and with Integrity, and with an open heart, I can't help myself from grinning like a fool when I think back to how far I have come.
And I love it. All of it. This journey through life is truly and utterly amazing. It is so filled with GRACE. And there are always more changes ahead, more lessons to learn. This is what it means to evolve.
Bring it.
Much love from my open heart to yours,
MareBare
You are so right, we can't really control anything, even our own feelings - and that's always the kicker for me. It's really easy for me to get frustrated with myself and feel like I haven't "fixed everything" yet. This is, of course, ridiculous... but it is a handy way of distracting myself from those out of control emotions!
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